I wish I could say I've been doing some thinking lately.
In fact, I have not. The fact of the matter is I have checked out in a way. I've taken a holiday from my own life. I've been reading novels -- if you're curious, I'm reading "The Sea, The Sea" by Iris Murdoch right now and finished "The Museum of Innocence" by Orhan Pamuk before that -- and watching too much television. I've been working, of course, which is about the only thing that provides some kind of structure to my daily life.
I know that you don't come here for navel-gazing crap, and I promise that this kind of tripe won't become a regular feature at TM. But I do feel compelled to explain myself to the lovely people who emailed me and said "Hey, WTF? Where ya been crazy lady?"
Okay, maybe they didn't say that in those words, exactly, but you know what I mean.
So I am going to start holding myself accountable to you, to you who are reading from Japan and you who are logging on from France. You come here for a reason, and I really do want to provide you with more reasons to keep coming back.
I am going to say my goal out loud and put it out there in the world in the hopes that if I do, if I make sure that I am accountable to more than just myself, then maybe I have a better chance of beating this thing and coming out on top again.
My goal is to post three times a week, every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, without fail. If I don't uphold my end of the bargain, feel free to chastise me and give me a good what for.
I have other goals for 2010 swimming around my head, but lest I get too far ahead of myself here, I think it's best to keep a few tucked away for now.
It's time to shake off the lethargy and get engaged.